How are you doing? The most popular question for new parents.
My response every time is….adjusting. Survival mode. The first week you are running on adrenaline. You just created life, gave birth to a beautiful baby and you feel on top of the world. You are going through the motions and you have A LOT of visitors and no time to process. Week two you are coming down off the high and starting to realize you have a VERY different but a very great new life. You try to start figuring out how you will adjust and I still struggled with forming a STRONG bond with my baby girl. Yes, I loved her to pieces and could stare at her all day but she was also this tiny little stranger who came into my life. The beginning of week three was the hardest. I had my first breakdown. We thought Olivia may be getting colic – which are episodes of nonstop crying for no apparent reason and you can do nothing, nothing to stop it – and I couldn’t really cope. She would start right around 7pm right when Bud was finally home from work and we could spend some time together decompressing after a long day at work/home. I wanted to cry, scream or leave. She eventually grew out of these night time spells or we just adjusted…there is that word again. Week four was my best week. I felt like I was finally “getting it”. Sleep was becoming a bit more routine, she was great at nursing or I was just used to having a baby attached to me 24/7 and we were moving in the right direction. We were parents with a sweet baby girl!
Speaking of nursing…no one REALLY tells you how intense it is. You cant do anything without tracking time or worrying that she will need to feed and it makes you cranky and mad at your husband (because their freedom and ability to drink IPA’s becomes an annoyance to you). The baby is literally attached to your boob every hour and its draining. So going to Walmart becomes as exciting and as much fun as a ten day trip to Hawaii. My advice is to mentally prepare as best as you can before the baby arrives, commit to the job and download a nursing app on your phone!
Did I mention she rolled over several times starting week three – amazing. Proud Momma moment.
Olivia has become an amazing part of our world. We have also made her adjust :) to our world. She went to lunch the first week she was born, went out around the neighborhood in the stroller, took trips to SAMS club, Gigi’s house and weekend getaways to the lake.
We are lucky parents to one special girl. Bud has been a rockstar and a champion at diaper changing. He loves to say “Hi Beautiful” on repeat every time he sees that sweet face. He gives me time every day to relax and have my glass of wine. #Fatheroftheyear